Well, I think you get to a place where you realize you have nothing to lose.
Nothing at all. Then you have no reason to bind yourself. I had no reason to hold on.
I found it stupid to hold on, to close myself up and hold within me nothing.
So I decided to try everything, to keep myself wide open to human beings,
all human beings — seeing them as I understand them to be,
not as they wish they were, but as I understand them to be.
Very truthfully — not idealistically, but realistically.
And seeing that if this person knew better he would do better.
That doesn’t mean that I don’t protect myself from his actions, you know.